Long time, no post

It’s been a while since I have posted and there is a reason for that.  This phase of my recovery has easily been the hardest part.  It is hard to to work everyday.  But the hardest part is trying to manage all of the other aspects of my life along with working a full time job.  By the end of the day I am mentally and physically exhausted. There is cooking and cleaning, and bill paying and trying to figure out ways to schedule appointments, sick husbands, emergency vet trips, call, and two time a day PT. I by no means am complaining, I am just trying to adjust.  I am adjusting, s      l                o                      w                                     l                                              y.

Everyday I am exhausted.  Like if I sit down I won’t get back up kind of exhausted.  But I get up and do it because I have to.  Sometimes you just have to suck it up and just do it.  My biggest problem is my back.  Everyday after work it hurts.  Some days are better than others, but today its particularly bad.  Today was my 10th day of work in row.  Two more to go and then I get a break.  When is this back pain gonna end? I don’t know. But I do know it’s temporary and will soon stop.  I’ve been having some pain under my armpits too but it’s all muscular from my lats.  So when I come home I can take the Valium prescribed for the muscle spasms and there is relief.  The muscle spasms are getting better in the front base of my breasts, but still very present in my under arm area.

I don’t think anyone could have prepared me for this transition.  So I am trying very hard to hold it all together and get everything done.  So 530 am wake ups, to get exercises and some chores done before work, then work, then home to cook dinner do some more chores only to pass out as late as I can possibly stand.  Which is usually 10.  Last week I got done with work early one day, came home, napped from 430-800 got up, used the bathroom, and went back to bed.  I don’t even think I really sleep, I think I fall into a coma.

I will get it together,  it’s just taking me a long time, and my body can only heal so fast.  This is all temporary.  That seems to be my mantra lately, I can do it, this is temporary.

2 thoughts on “Long time, no post

  1. You got this! So first 10 days in a row is insane, i get through 5 and i’m ready to shove someone off the hospital balcony :) Second back pain. I was having a lot of issues with back pain awhile back and i found that yoga actually really helped me out, that or just stretching. I know your already doing a ton during the day and PT all the time but it may help. I still just can’t believe how far you have come it seems like yesterday i was there for thanksgiving, but like you said it maybe a little slow and i know it’s def not easy but you will get there. Next thing you know you’ll be doing back hang springs with no hands, some call those back flips lol. Alls i know is that you are one tough sister and i’m proud of you and love you…… Something maybe coming in the mail soon……

    • Ahhhh Dr.Smiley Cyrus, I can’t wait to see what is coming in the mail! I LOVE MAIL!!!!!!!!! Thanks for leaving me a positive post! It’s so nice to get on here and read the encouraging words you wrote. And you are right, I will get there, it just takes time. I love the stupid names you make up. Dr. Smiley Cyrus is one of your better ones. As far as back hand springs with no arms that some people like to call backflips, the only time you’ll see that is if I’m jumping in the pool or I’m on a trampoline. I wish I still had our trampoline. Remember when you smacked your head on one of the springs and it popped off? Bahahahaha. Not sure what I can do to work on my back muscles, I don’t have lats in the back anymore so I think stretching is the best bet. Maybe I will try some yoga. My girlfriend Casey at work suggested that too. I have PT on Wednesday so I will see what they think! Love your face! Miss your face! Wanna squeeze your face!

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