I had PT yesterday. Thank goodness it was yesterday and not today. We are getting POUNDED by snow and sleet. I am also glad that my surgery was last week this time, not today. We never would have made it. My dad came to take me because I wasn’t sure how I would feel afterwards. PT feels so much better with nice squishy silicone than it did with hard expanders. My appointment lasted 2.5 hrs. I didn’t think I would ever get out of there. Sure I was sore after, but nothing like when those expanders were in. Instead of pain, it’s a soreness. I will take sore over pain any day. I got some isometric exercises that I have to do along with some stretching. No problem. I have one more PT appointment next Wednesday, and see Dr. Greaney next Friday then I should be cleared to go back to work on Monday the 24th. I am looking forward to it. I have been feeling pretty lonely lately and am excited to be around people again. I feel as if my life is just standing still. I’m ready for it to move.
I saw the nurse at my appointment as well, and she was able to tell me that it looked like I got 550cc moderate profile plus implants on both sides. That surprised me a little because I had figured that my right implant would have been bigger than my left because of the need for added expansion. They were originally thinking of using 700’s. I can’t imagine how big that would be, because they are almost exactly the size I was before but much higher. It can take up to six months for the implants to settle into the pocket so my breasts will change a little over the next couple of weeks. She thought they looked great and that in a few weeks they will look even better.
The next step will be nipple reconstruction. Dr. Greaney said he doesn’t like to do that until at least 3 months after the exchange surgery. I’m ok with that. No hurry here.
For anyone out there who is having tissue expanders/in the process of having therm or is considering going this route, trust me when I say you are so much more comfortable when you get your final implants. It’s like night and day. Hang in there. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
I don’t know if anyone has taken the time to look at the pictures that I have posted, but my sister Annie sent me a text that sums up how I am feeling right now. She said ” They are probably like a new haircut. You will like them more and more with time.” And she’s right. I by no means think that they look bad, I am just getting used to them and need to wait for them to settle.
I have physical therapy tomorrow so my Dad came down to take me. I could probably drive myself there but I really have no idea how I am going to feel after. Better safe than sorry. Luckily my appointment is early in the morning so hopefully my Dad will be able to make it back home before we get pummeled by this snow we are to get. I am so fortunate that I have a family that is able to help me so much.
Time. Waiting. Patience. Things I don’t do well with, but I am trying.
Today was a tough day. I feel like I got hit by a truck. I must not have slept very well last night because I feel like I have been on the verge of a nap all day and feel as if I could sleep for 7 years. Lol. I fact I feel like I could go to sleep right now and be fine with that. Maybe I will.
So I unwrapped myself this morning around 1030, but I was all by myself so I called my sister Amy because I was nervous. We face timed and she was with me while I took everything off. Nerve-wracking? Understatement. They look good? Maybe? I think? I’m not real sure how I feel about them yet. I know it can take a few months for the implants to settle. I am trying not to be too hard on myself, and keep in mind that they will look different in a few weeks. But I did it, I forced myself to unwrap them. They look better than I thought they would, but I still just don’t know how I feel yet. I felt like I was on the urge of a panic attack all day. I got responses from “they look great! To they look ok.” Thanks to Erin (one person who told me she thought they looked good) my sister-in-law who talked me through it. I started feeling very insecure and worried that I look deformed. She listened to all of my worries and helped me so much. Thank you Erin. So, I will post pics of the results when I unwrapped today. This is a very hard thing for me to show you because I don’t know how I feel about them. But I told you when I started this that I would be as real as I can so I will post pics on my pictures page.
Today is the day I am allowed to unwrap myself. It’s also the first day throughout this process that I have been this nervous. I was nervous one other time, when I was going to possibly get my drain out, but that doesn’t even hold a candle to how I am feeling right now. I’m sitting here on the couch by myself contemplating if I should unwrap now or wait until Eric gets home. I am literally sweating. This entire experience ends (mostly) with this. What if they look bad. I know it takes a few weeks for them to settle, but I really want them to look nice. Who knows, maybe they will be fabulous. I know it seems silly to be this nervous…but I just can’t seem to help myself. I have physical therapy on Wednesday, my dad is coming down to take me. My next post op appointment isn’t until feb 21st. Why do I have to be such a wimp. I know I should just unwrap them and get it over with but I just don’t know if I want to do it while I am alone. Pathetic, I know.