So I unwrapped myself this morning around 1030, but I was all by myself so I called my sister Amy because I was nervous. We face timed and she was with me while I took everything off. Nerve-wracking? Understatement. They look good? Maybe? I think? I’m not real sure how I feel about them yet. I know it can take a few months for the implants to settle. I am trying not to be too hard on myself, and keep in mind that they will look different in a few weeks. But I did it, I forced myself to unwrap them. They look better than I thought they would, but I still just don’t know how I feel yet. I felt like I was on the urge of a panic attack all day. I got responses from “they look great! To they look ok.” Thanks to Erin (one person who told me she thought they looked good) my sister-in-law who talked me through it. I started feeling very insecure and worried that I look deformed. She listened to all of my worries and helped me so much. Thank you Erin. So, I will post pics of the results when I unwrapped today. This is a very hard thing for me to show you because I don’t know how I feel about them. But I told you when I started this that I would be as real as I can so I will post pics on my pictures page.
Daily Archives: February 10, 2014
Nervous
Today is the day I am allowed to unwrap myself. It’s also the first day throughout this process that I have been this nervous. I was nervous one other time, when I was going to possibly get my drain out, but that doesn’t even hold a candle to how I am feeling right now. I’m sitting here on the couch by myself contemplating if I should unwrap now or wait until Eric gets home. I am literally sweating. This entire experience ends (mostly) with this. What if they look bad. I know it takes a few weeks for them to settle, but I really want them to look nice. Who knows, maybe they will be fabulous. I know it seems silly to be this nervous…but I just can’t seem to help myself. I have physical therapy on Wednesday, my dad is coming down to take me. My next post op appointment isn’t until feb 21st. Why do I have to be such a wimp. I know I should just unwrap them and get it over with but I just don’t know if I want to do it while I am alone. Pathetic, I know.